I am 41 and working for the IRS for several months now. What will become of my existence after my death? Will these mums return to life as it starts to warm up. I am living in this fortress in the sky, but home springs eternal. New car, new job, new apartment, new city, new life. Very much alone. Always sickly, weak and tired. Change is coming. Trump on the horizon. 15 minutes, 20 minutes, 25 minutes until routine. Brush my teeth more, not less. Exhausted. Reading and watching all I can find to fill my time.Â